I actually have not had that happen yet. Any kind of performance gone wrong had gone wrong in certain mechanical ways. Again, like not remembering lines and stuff like that. Just a general lack of preparation on the part of the actors. I'm not generally worried about whether the audience likes the performance, but rather that the performance will be giving it all we've got. It's kind of like your example.
I'm a little bit like that. I think that as I grow, I'll feel it more. Like, I'll be more familiar with what I'm doing and become much more comfortable with the keyboard I have as time goes on, and I'll be more familiar with all of the little ways that your hand moves and feels as it strikes the keys in different ways. Now, I have not thought about playing with the rhythm and structure, or anything like that. I have actually sort of transitioned out of a song that's in C major and just moved on to something else in the same key that was completely improvised. Granted, again, I'm not as familiar or comfortable, so it's not as if it flows quite the same way as what it came from... but it's like me in the form of music right there. And usually it's pretty. When it isn't I just do different things. But, there was a part of this song I have for the showcase that bugged me. In a Whole New World, the part that goes "fantastic point of view" is just a bit of a mess. It's straight quarter notes in the arrangement I have and it has been driving me nuts... so I'm playing it more to resemble the original song. Probably going to run it by somebody more experienced, but it sounds and feels much better to me.
If singing is more like a sport, I'm not really at all physically fit. That would explain a lot of why I feel sort of behind. It's also just that my voice as it is isn't very good. The range isn't. The sound of it apparently is very pleasant, but my range extends from something like the G at the bottom of the staff on bass clef to middle C on an okay day. Maybe the E above that on a really really good day. If we're talking falsetto, or high voice, or whichever term that is... an octave higher would be pushing it. Really, I don't think that I want a different voice, but I just don't know how to use the one I've got. And, well, if it is indeed more like a sport, I must be so unfit that I can't really perform as well as the real vocal athletes.
Sprouting wings or being the very best is a bit out of the question, but there's no way to work and practice at being successful enough at something you weren't necessarily born to do? I wouldn't buy that. Regardless, I don't really have any knowledge or experience in this field. I'll just have to learn it the hard way in the end, and figure out what I really am the best at doing. But, I will say that I have no plans to min-max life. I must strike the balance of passion and survival, to enjoy what I'm doing and still eat while doing it.
Well, I like there to be music around. I guess it's not as if I can only focus on one thing, rather that I need to devote some amount of my attention span to what I am listening to as well as to what I am doing. It actually really bothers me to hear other people talking while I work, because then I'll listen. And then I'll respond. It's kind of ingrained in me, I guess. I've just done it for so long that it happens with words just as well as music.
Now... I do not know what I would do in that situation. I actually used to do a lot of more improvisational sort of thing, and that kind of skill probably comes in handy for disaster mitigation in these situations. However, I actually have not done any improv for a very long time, so I'm not at all well practiced. I'd need to get into it to really know how I would handle things and to keep a straight enough face through the worst things.
aaaaand... I will look into them when I'm not extremely tired. I'm talking, tired enough that I feel the effect of being tired. So... Goodnight! We shall talk more other days, good sir!
