Author Topic: Apologies for disappearing for a couple of days (health incident - Chris).  (Read 930 times)

Offline x4000

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Hey all,

I'm doing better, but my body is basically still recovering from a medical... thing... that happened yesterday.  I'm not sure precisely what it was that happened, but it started coming on on Wednesday, and then fully laid me out Thursday and most of today.

It was definitely caused by stress, and I thought it was just panic attacks, but it's possible that it was actually some sort of heart issue.  I know what the big contributing factors to it were, and in some ways it's been building for a couple of weeks and was more of a stress reaction than anything physical.

It's tempting to get into TMI, but at any rate I am looking into it and it's not real clear yet what the actual physical event was.  But I am ambulatory again, and able to eat food again, so those are both good things.  It was both worse and not as bad as I'm making it sound, in various ways, but that's where we tread into TMI territory.

I'm... doing better now. But I have a bunch of office-work type stuff I need to do, which is mostly what I'll focus on tomorrow in the hours I'm awake.  I was going to do that today, and yesterday, but then wound up being mostly unconscious most of those days.  Or more of yesterday wishing I was.  Unless I have a secondary incident, which isn't expected, then the worst of it is by far over for the short term, and I'm just getting my stamina and so on back.  Mentally I seem to be at full capacity, which is good.

More to come soon, sigh.  I love working on this game, but I wish that Arcen actually paid the bills.  That hasn't been the case for me personally since 2015, and that's... stressful.  On top of the divorce, which is like a stress sandwich.  I love what I do, but a big part of me is kinda terrified I might not be able to keep doing it.  That's probably TMI.

I don't really know how to end this, so I'll just stop writing. ;) 
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Offline Draco18s

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Don't kill yourself for us, man.

Offline x4000

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It's not for you guys.  I'm just trying to stay alive and also make ends meet in this crazy industry.  It happens that I love what I do, but that's not the root cause of any of this, really.  Professionally I should have really scaled back years ago a lot, and I wouldn't be in this position now.  But hindsight is 20/20.
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